Dear Alfie,
Today is your fifth birthday. It’s still hard to believe my sweet baby is a “big boy” now. It seems like only yesterday I was cuddling my precious one-pound pup in my arms. My heart was full when you came into my life, because I knew I would never be alone (at least for the next 10-15 years, anyway).
We’ve been through a lot together, little man. You were my only friend when I first moved to Johnson City in 2006. You were still a tiny baby, but I needed you just as much as you needed me. I thank God I had you then. You kept me company, snuggling with me while tears fell into my wine glass as I watched “Sex And The City” on DVDs alone in my little living room. This usually happened on Tuesday nights in Johnson City, because Tuesday was my Friday, and there was nothing else to do on Tuesday nights. We had dinner together, dance parties together, long walks through the neighborhood together. It was just you and me, kid. And we made it work.
I’m still not sure if you realize it, but you’re blind, my boy. You were a baby when I learned that you were born with a genetic eye problem. The doctor told us there was nothing we could do for your sight. It broke my heart when I found out, but also made me love you more. I wanted to take care of you and give you the best life you could possibly have. It’s a good thing you have such a kind-hearted momma. Many people probably wouldn’t pay for your expensive vet bills or your prescription eye drops. You are special needs, indeed. But that’s OK; I love you anyway.
You began to thrive when mommy and daddy were married; when we became a real family. You had a father figure to look up to, and he had his boy. He does love you, even though you’re a Yorkie (not exactly the most manly of breeds). You were two happy fellas, until you realized that daddy loves mommy. Then, you started peeing on stuff. You thought I was yours. And as much as I hated cleaning up pee pee, I couldn’t help but think it was sort of sweet that you loved me so much.
I cannot begin to express the joy you’ve brought me, Alfie Ralphie Perkins-Collins. To date – you’re the best gift your sweet daddy has given me. Well, it's probably a tie between you and my engagement ring, because it is sparkly and expensive. But you’re definitely important, little man. You’ve taught me to be more patient and more loving than I thought possible (mostly because I’m not the most patient or loving person in the world). You brought the good out in me. Taught me how to nurture.
I love you, Alf-Ralph, Ralphie Roo, Buster Brown, Honey Bear, Punkin’ Head, Bubba Scrubba, Alpo, Angel Face, Yorkie Porkie Puddin’ and Pie, Rootie Tootie Fresh and Fruity.
Happy Birthday, Alfie!